A Tainted View


A Tainted View

Her words were sincere as she encouraged me to trust our heavenly father to bring healing to my broken heart.

I nodded as the tears slowly found their way to the ground.

I wanted to believe that Jesus could heal me.

The truth was, I didn’t trust him.

Although I would never tell a soul of my wavering thoughts. God knew just what was in my heart.

Can you blame me? My heart quietly stood in protest.

I had a father who broke my spirit; he taught me that a man could not be trusted.

I’m supposed to believe in a father I couldn’t see, when the one standing in front of me confirmed that little girls are to be used and disregarded.

In her kindness to help me understand, she pointed me to John 10:14, “I am the good shepherd, and I know my own and My own know Me.”

I felt judged, not by her, but by the voice of condemnation bouncing about in my head.

I thought I knew God.

I had gone to church my whole life;  said the sinner’s prayer, wasn’t that enough?

Placing her hand on my shoulder, she said: “Jamie, to trust someone you must first know them.”

What was I missing here?

I called myself a Christian but didn’t trust the God I was serving to take care of me?

Hmm, I began to consider the missing pieces in my life.

I sounded religious but lacked transformation.

I went to church because it’s what Christians do, but I didn’t know who God was.

It was like starting over.

The abuse that my earthly father inflicted on me tainted my view of the Bible and who God is.

I quickly understood that my feelings were not always the truth, but the word of God is absolute truth.

It was time to get to know God for who he is and not allow my view of him to be tainted based on the actions and opinions of others.

Jeremiah 29:13 “If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me.”

From Genesis to Revelation, God’s character is revealed.

His words gripped my heart, he carefully untangled the lies and replaced them with truth.

God didn’t intend for harm to come to me. That was what the devil wanted.

But God was going to use it for good. Genesis 50:20

He had good plans for my life to give me a future filled with hope. Jeremiah 29:11

Before you can trust someone, you must first get to know them.

The Bible shows us who God is.

God’s attributes are evident, and His actions match his character.

Love is who God is and he demonstrated that on the cross.  John 3:16 “For this is how  God  loved the world:  He gave his one and only Son so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life.”

God can be trusted. Psalm 62:8 “Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us. Selah.”

He is the Redeemer who has come to save you. 1 Corinthians 6:20 ” You are not your own, for you were bought with a price.”

Grace is the simplicity of his message. Ephesians 2:8-9 “For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not results of your work so that no one may boast.”

He is Holy.

Isaiah writes “And one called to another and said: Holy, holy, holy is the Lord of host; the whole world is full of his glory.” Isaiah 6:3

As you draw closer to God he will reveal himself to you.

He will teach you who he is and he will make himself real to you in all that you go through.

When you get to know God you will learn to trust him in everything, even when you don’t understand.

Praying for you today,














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