Last week I posted an article called,
“A Girl Without A Voice.”
It was tough to write because it touched the scars of my deepest wounds.
Although there has been much healing, I can still identify with the pain of my past when conversations come up.
Many years ago during a counseling session, I was asked this question,
“Jamie, do you want to be healed?”
I thought she was being sarcastic!
Of course, I want to be well; I was sick and tired of the haunting memories, negative thoughts, and the vicious cycle of not being good enough; and believing somehow I must have deserved being violated by my father.
I understand now, why she posed that question.
I lived an artificial life, and I played that role very well, until the dragon of my past reared its ugly head into my present life, and I could no longer pretend things were alright.
She asked the question because I was standing at a fork in the road.
My answer would determine the path I’d choose.
No matter how dark the days would be, that question would stand like a beacon of light, “Jamie, do you want to be well?”
Even on days when I thought it was impossible, my response was always, Yes!
Maybe you chase away the thoughts of healing. Perhaps you’ve left your wounds so far in the past, you believe it isn’t necessary to resurrect those painful memories.
What I know for sure, I was a product of my past and the only way to get better was to identify those wounds and call on God to bring healing.
When life required me to show up and act like a well-adjusted adult, I often found myself fearful, angry, and in desperate need to control my surroundings. Those were my constant go-to’s for how to deal with life.
I caused a lot of unnecessary pain in my relationships.
But God in his faithfulness, poured out his grace and began to heal my brokenness.
So I want to ask you the question?
Do you want to be healed?
If your answer is yes, then let me share with you, my journey towards wholeness.
I encourage you to spend some time reading the word of God and the stories of what God did to bring healing to the multitudes of people just like you and me.
John 5:1-9 tells the story of a paralyzed man.
Near the pool of Bethesda, this man laid for thirty-eight years, hoping, wishing, and wanting to be healed.
There were many sick people there. Some were blind, others lame. The people believed whoever would be the first one in the pool when the water stirred, that person would be healed.
Picture this; the place crowded, sick people laying on the ground waiting for their chance to dip into the pool first. But how would the blind person know where to go? The Paralyzed? How could they walk toward the pool?
What an impossible and stressful situation.
But Jesus comes on the scene.
I can already feel the healing.
In this overcrowded place of hurting people, Jesus sees this man.
I love that Jesus doesn’t play games, he cuts right to the chase and asks.
“Do you want to be healed?”
The man’s response, “Sir, I have no one to put me in the pool, when the water stirs up.”
Notice, Jesus doesn’t engage with the man’s belief or even in his self-pity. He simply gives him the command, “Get up, take up your bed and walk.”
I love this!
Jesus knows what you’ve been through; He is saying, I can heal you, get up.
He’s saying, take everything that you know: your past, your belief system, your doubts, and turn to me.
I was just like the physically challenged man.
I needed help. I needed someone to pray for me, someone who was going to speak God’s truth to me over and over until it became my reality.
I learned to use God’s word daily to untangle my unhealthy thoughts and beliefs.
John 8:32 declares, “And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”
The truth can be painful, but God promises freedom.
God will take your past, and through the course of healing, bring you to a place of peace.
God’s grace covers your biggest traumas.
He has the power to make you well.
He gives forgiveness where there once lived hatred.
He will give you perspective for the future that is full of hope and joy.
He can use your life to show other’s the way out of a painful past and into a life of healing and restoration.
God’s word is like salve, bringing healing to your wounds.
God loves you!
He didn’t cause your pain, but he will use it for good.
Genesis 50:20 “You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people.”
Allow God to change your thinking through his word. Philippians 4:8 “Whatever is true, honorable, just, pure, and lovely, think about these things.”
Don’t underestimate the power of God to transform your life.
Isaiah 61:3 “To console those who mourn in Zion, to give them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness.”
Trusting God for your healing.
Now get up, take up your bed and walk.
Praying for you,