I walked into the room just as I had done for the past week.
I began to place my things on the chair near the foot of her bed. The sun casts its rays on the pale pink walls as though it was sending me a sign of hope.
She mustered all the strength she could and softly shouted, “You, You are my daughter.”
I turned to look at her, and with a smile on my face I replied, “Yes I am!”
She took a shallow breath and spoke, “You are my blessing.”
The unexpected words caused tears to fall from my eyes, blurring my vision as I walked over to her bed.
I leaned in and kissed her cheek softly. “Thank you, Mama,” I whispered in her ear.
She drifted back into unconsciousness.
I pulled up a chair next to her bed, surprised that she spoke, let alone those words.
You are My daughter, You are my blessing.
No one but God knew how much my little girl heart needed to hear those words.
She was lying on her death-bed and spoke life to me.
I always felt like a disappointment to her. Her words were never kind to me while growing up.
After years of abuse from her husband (my father), she could no longer endure his violent rages and controlling ways. She left him but forgot to take me with her.
I walked around most of my life covered by the shame of abuse, low self-worth, and this undying need to be loved.
God took the last few years of my mother’s life and began to heal our relationship.
Caring for her, in the end, was one of the greatest blessings of my life.
Sometimes when I think about my childhood and I see the woman God is making me, it seems impossible that I am here.
Proverbs 18:21 Says, “Words kill, words give life; they’re either poison or fruit, You choose.” (The message bible)
“Death and life are in the power of the tongue.”( New king James)
It’s easy to give excuses when unkind words spring from our lips like a sharp knife piercing the heart of the ones we love.
But the truth is there are no excuses for allowing ourselves to poison someone with unkind phrases.
words can be life-giving and words can cause death.
Putting a stop to letters that form a weapon of words is a choice.
Many times words have caused death to friendships, marriages, reputations, even businesses, and churches have ended based on deadly words spoken that brought about division.
Proverbs 12:18 “Some people make cutting remarks, but the words of the wise bring healing.”
After years of hurtful words, my mother’s last few words she would ever speak to me brought about deep healing.
She’s been gone for almost eleven years and still those words bless me when I think about them.
God didn’t just heal the hurt in my heart, he allowed my heart to grow and he set me free.
Don’t you want a fountain of life to flow from your lips? Proverbs 10:11
What would it be like if today you decided to build someone up rather than tear them down?
The bible tells us that it will be good and helpful to speak encouragement to someone today. Ephesians 5:29
Please forgive me when I have carelessly used words that hurt people. I ask that you set a guard over my mouth. Would you keep watch over the door of my lips and remind me to speak life today in everything I say. Help me to listen carefully and take my time when I respond. I want to speak life to the people you love, so will you teach me to be like you, In Jesus name, I pray amen.
May your life be filled with his love and grace as you learn to speak life today.
Praying for you,